Meditation in Memory of Grandmother Luba

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We were having some tea and talking. I asked Lena, our talented beauty with innate clairvoyance to find the soul of my deceased grandmother Lubov Petrovna, nee Myasoedova.

Lena fell silent, I gave her a photo of my grandmother. She dropped it on the floor, as if it had burned her fingers. Lena screamed and grabbed her head running to the corner of the room. She pressed herself against the wall and squatted down. Continuing holding her head, as if protecting herself from the blows she shouted: “She beats me! Something is hanging on her! I cannot deal with this.” What she was talking about? I stood my ground defending the reputation of my grandmother. I told Lena that my granny read Thomas Mann in German and Zola in French, wars and communists robbed her shamelessly, all was stolen from her but her rheumatism, her near-blindedness and pain in knees. Therefore, there was nothing that could hang on her. Rather something would hang on people who sent her sons to war, drove her out of her house, plundered family dinner sets and crystals, smashed her library, used the pages from the “Encyclopedic Dictionary of Brockhaus and Efron” to wipe their dirty asses, broke the piano, and dragged everything — up to her black velvet bag with family jewelry.

Lena was silent, as it was too obvious that I knew nothing about life deeper secrets and man’s invisible ties to subtle worlds… Soon, we forgot this episode, and surrendered to the female preferential occupation — gossip and exchanging opinions about things that we knew not too much about. Despite the inherent gift of clairvoyance, Lena was a cheerful person, talented, with a lively sense of humor, and we had something to talk about.

Year 2017, 30 years have passed, since Lena and I had that memorable tea party at my flat. I live in Los Angeles and I have passed the age threshold marked by the number 80, and now it was my turn to treat rheumatism, pain in the knees, and other age-related ailments. I practiced meditation and our Lord took note of it by opening some of my finer energy channels, and I started to hear the dead people talking and sometimes observe the visitations from the astral worlds, especially the visitations of animals in spirit. Lately, a beautiful wolf marched proudly across my room and out of my 3rd floor window without breaking the glass. And sometimes we have visitations from a little white dog, a twin of one in flesh that belongs to a sweet Korean lady who lives a floor below me. Sometimes, while my cat in flesh is getting her food from a plate, I see another one, a cat in spirit trying to get its share from the same plate! The day came when, making my special preparations, I dared to meditate in memory of my grandmother Luba.


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Appealing to the guardians for a fire-ring protection and narrowing the goal of this meditation – because only they know what is most worthwhile to concentrate upon in given circumstances. Spontaneously, an early childhood vision of my grandmother comes to mind. I was about three years old in someone’s arms, probably it’s were my father’s arms, and my mother was next to him in her new flowery dress. Easter. Returning home from the church, the grown-ups broke loose. Grandmother brought out two large chocolate eggs, one in shiny red, the other in a golden wrapper, and apparently testing me for the innate taste, she asked me to choose one … I remember my very small hands that were desperately trying to reach… a bright red egg. The granny said that the golden egg was more elegant one, and she would like me to have the golden one. But l started to cry bitterly still demanding that red one!  … My grandmother frowned, my mother looked at her pleadingly with a strange guilty smile on her face. Without adding a word, my grandmother escaped to her room.

The meditation needs a new start. I concentrate on my nostrils and breathe boringly and evenly. It is still dark behind my closed eyes. Finally, as if from a milky fog before the sunrise, some outlines begin to emerge … “The third eye” reveals the picture of the field, dotted with skulls. There were more skulls than on Vereshchagin’s painting “The Apotheosis of War.”

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Lena’s moaning: “Something heavy was hanging on her conscience…” — was flashing by.

Suddenly, the meditation takes me to a mystical place. I see a flat horizontal field with shiny gates in its depth, and a separately existing vertical field with a black marble box, or case, or a chest for storing something of value. The shape of this marble mantle reminds the heart on Valentine’s cards. This weighty thing was symbolizing granny’s spiritual heart, and it was literally hanging in the air just in from of me, a couple of inches above my computer.

On my left hand appeared the imaginary ring that was passing curses, the ominous ring  given by Ivan the Terrible to my ancestor, oprichnik Masoedov.  (More about this ring can be found in the blog – “Repent, repent, repent!”)  Soon, that golden sapphire ring started emanate curse waves of souls of wounded warriors who were left behind to die in terrible pain… These curses showed me the size of granny’s guilt that her immortal soul had collected during eons of incarnations as a warlord, maybe since times when  Sumerian poets birthed poems about their king-priest Gilgamesh. If difficult thought forms were not released, according to the great cosmic Law of Attraction, they would add  to the burden of guilt attracting similar energy wave from universe. In granny’s soul, this type of guilt ridden thought forms worked like the magnet.  And in this meditation we attempt to free my granny’s soul from this “magnet” as much as we can.  I

I continue meditating. I do not act alone. Someone is organizing souls into “Indian files” hat move toward Golden Gates. They look like faithful in Russian churches approaching the golden orthodox cross, everyone kissing its cold surface to confirm his devotion to their faith and their church.

And finally, I noticed angels and priests working on the field. Some kept order in this pool of moving souls, the other were consoling those who were so weak that could not reach without help their goal to be saved by LIGHT! I realized what size of weight was removed from my grandmother Luba’s conscience.

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I was instructed to work with her spiritual heart, the image of which was in front of me. My business was to focus light on this image making the “marble” mantel around granny’s tortured heart to melt and disappear.

Someone was sent to help me as well. Before I knew it, someone took over the driver’s seat, the rhythm of the actions changed from normal human to inhuman speed. Was it shape shifting, or something else? I became a man, a shaman, some other creature. I was no longer sure who was calling light to melt the marble mantel in question? I threw my hands in the high and I was shouting, “Light, light, light!” Finally, I had a chance to look at my hands, but they were not mine! They were a men’s naked hands with strong swollen biceps, multiple bracelets, tattooed. I realized that these hands belong to strange half-naked man with light brownish skin … with light bandana to control his dark hair on his head, with dark eyes, and with a distinctive small hump on his nose.  In order to give idea what I saw, I downloaded this picture from the Internet collection of images of ancient Egypt’s humans.  Here we see two almost naked figures, and one fully dressed female. The naked figures looked very smililar to the one who worked with me. And he was also accompanied with a flock of his helpers.


Maybe it would be more accurate to say that I’m not the only one who called LIGHT, we were a powerful team – a strange helper out of ancient Egypt with his beautiful friends and I — we all called LIGHT to heal my grandmother. I was in the state of ecstasy. I was crying and I did not remember myself, I did not know where I was, out of body, or still in this room and how did we get so much golden LIGHT that it filled the room! Time to time, I repeated asking out loud for the fire ring protection and blessings from Jesus, the Savior, and Virgin Mary, the Immaculate Mother of God. I asked help from Mary Magdalene, because I felt her presence. My assistant and I, or rather I as his assistant, were working together. He took me – of course not me, but part of my consciousness, what we are in the state of OBE, for an unusual ride across the time and space!

The intensity of this spiritual flight was indescribable in words, because of its unusual speed. The layers of history and cultures, Egyptian kingdoms and dynasties, the campaigns of the Romans, then the Crusaders, then the Persians changed rapidly. We visited terrible sites of ruins produced by wars and insurrections. Without any warning or explanation, the vision jumped to the wars of the Aztecs and Incas on the American continent. But suddenly our flight stopped at a fence decorated with severed heads with removed scalps. Apparently, even my guide did not expect this … In a nonverbal manner, he whom name I never learned, gave me the following sentence: “You grandmother’s soul had it’s fill here. When her soul was done with this Camacho camp, and upon its arrival to afterlife, sha sought buptizing into Christian faith, and asked to consider the cycle of warior incarnations to be completed.  This wish was granted, and she was rushed into the next cycle of reincarnations as a woman who would experience the pain of loosing her childrens too soon.”

I think that 30 years ago Lena, when I asked her to “find my grandmother in the next world,” hit the same fence adored by heads with removed scalps. Probably she tuned into unbearable pain which was hovering above that terrible hedge, and as a modern world being she simply was not able to digest the horror of this experience.

When our journey through time and space ended, the black marble mantel around granny’s heart started showing signs of softening. Like melting wax is rolling down along the lit candle’s stem, so did melting “marble”! Probably, it was never a real marble at the first place despite looking like one! The lower edge of the heart started to show some shy pastel colors as if signaling the progress in our attempt to free the heart from now unnecessary protection.  The heart was recovering with gentle glow of infantile pink. I was astounded that in the soul of this stern and sober, always reserved woman, was hidden so much tender childishness. And I recalled how one day in my early childhood she entered into an argument with me, the three years old, which paint is better, red or gold! She was annoyed  teaching me,  the first-grader,  the mathematics, but she was sincerely happy when I read Pushkin’s “Ruslan and Lyudmila” in one gulp at age 11, which the usual adults would never take as a sign of their child’s educational advancement.

… But, finally, the emerald glow began to break out of the released heart. I was told that there were changes in grandmother appearance, she was rejuvenating rapidly. Grandfather Grigory came up to me and said only a few words: “You gave me back my wife, thank you!”

And then, unexpectedly and sharply, I was told to close my chakras and lie down to rest. Before leaving, I created an imaginary burning field furnace near my computer, took off an imaginary sapphire ring from my finger, and threw it into the furnace flame. When the flame went out, a completely purified ring shining in the ashes. I left it there, and went to rest, falling asleep at once. When in 5 hours I woke up, there were no traces from the furnace or that dangerous ring! I hope it was picked up by a soul that could handle it and it would not bring him any harm!

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A few days later, a spirit, a mutual friend, brought me a message from Luba. My grandmother asked me to arrange a date with my mother Tamara, because it’s time to put up and reconcile.  I immediately remembered the matter that called once the pain to them both.  In the late thirties, when my mother became pregnant the second time, my grandmother decided that her son was not involved and my mother had a love interest on aside, in Tartu, or Dorpat, the Estonian university town what she frequented to  visit.   As a matter of fact, she visited Tartu to see her demanding and moody family. I think, they pressured my mother to make granny Luba to accept them and share her space in Paide with them. My grandmother, having her reasons, refused to do so categorically. However, the shadow of suspicions can be a poisonous thing. Granny ignored the presence of my brother and never let him into her heart!  Mother’s and granny’s relationship was ruined.  To top it all, granny put her doubts in writing  and sent the bitter letter to my mother officially over the mail. I was not aware of this literary work  until mother showed it to me shortly before her death.  Stupid me tore it apart, because as an esotericist, I was already aware of sad consequences from carrying this kind of letter near one’s heart. My mother was angry with me as well. My mom helped her husband’s mother in all thinkable ways, and believed that she did not deserve such a derogatory accusation. And she carried this resentment through her long life on earth until her death – 2 weeks before the 99th anniversary.

However, in the afterlife they met face to face again, and I was reported that they both cried recalling old times and reconciled. The desire of our haughty granny to see my mother and reconcile, can only be attributed to the work that the angels did on her during my meditation dedicated to my memory about her.

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It turned out that Paramahansa Yogananda participated in work on grandmother’s problems. Later, when I was writing the report of this event, Yogananda pointed to one powerful confirmation of facts that were revealed during this meditation.  We had this confirmation literally under our noses, but we managed not to see or recognize it! Yogananda continued: “And the name of this confirmation is Yuri, or Yurik, the son of Lubov Petrovna, and his fate!”

This time it was me who clutched my head, but not because of pain, but with amazement that I was so blind!

Paramahansa Yogananda continued: “Once upon the time, Luba pitied a wounded warrior by leaving him behind to die on the battlefield. Centuries later she gave him a new body, but was notable to protect him from his fate.

I have written several times about the terrible fate of Yurik , but I have to recall it briefly here what happened to him in the time of the Leningrad Blockade. A small group of wounded soldiers were forgotten in a non-heated building that had suffered from bombing. This happened in the fierce winter of 1942. The dying soldiers were left without any help until the frost freed them taking them to another world.

In other words, Yurik attracted and embodied the content of his mother’s unreleased and most negative thought forms – guilt over left behind wounded worriers on the battlefields.

Paramahansa Yogananda concluded, “This was a peace promoting meditation. You were brought into this work not only, because you are a medium capable to talk to involved spirits, but because your strong imagination is capable “translate” the negative vibrations into certain images that guiding angels can eradicate successfully.  This cleansing of negativity will  save many lives in coming wars.”




Paramahansa Yogananda Speaks about the Impact of Negativity on Life Here and in Hereafter


Yogananda speaks! This is a read for everybody who wants to improve his life, health and vitality, as it reveals some serious reasons of  difficulties that human beings experience on earth!    

Mediums often attract the authors in spirit of the books they read. Reading Autobiography of a Yogi, I heard a voice with a slight Indian accent.  I started to record our conversation.

T: — May I ask a question? How to reconcile two kinds of information about how we look in the afterlife: according to some sources we look great and, according to other sources, we look ugly. Who could better explain this than Yogananda?

PY: —Hollywood doesn’t miss the opportunity to stage a shape shifting scene in which a young man or maid is turned into an ugly vampire or an old witch.  And if the storyline makes these creatures last until sunrise, the first touch of sun melts them into a simmering puddle or burns them into a handful of ashes. As a matter of fact, these fairytales present a simplified formula of co-existence of beauty and ugliness in the higher realms. Our best appearance on earth shapes our astral double, but the moral aspect of our mentality shapes our mental body. The advanced seers observe it in its full “glory.” This is why so many of us avoid unnecessary contacts with people because it isn’t much fun to stare at the person’s mental body. Only few are ready to accept the truth and start cleansing and learning that our intentions, beliefs, emotions, and desires are magnets for thought formations.

They look like “scales” that cover the mental body. Having certain life in them, they materialize what was written on these scales by you — the content of your thoughts! The realization of these thoughts will appear in your life automatically in the form of certain events or happenings. You believe that you have never invited them into your life, but you did! Your thoughts did! Your fears and endless worries did!

This is why light-minded people, whom we call “the lucky fools”, make it through life so much better than “the smart and good ones”! This is why all esoteric teachings of all times and schools hold in high regard everything that helps “to let it go”! It always amazes me that people who believe they are committed to the development of intuition never ask, “What must I let go of?” They sit quietly “at the foot of their teachers” and they think that they know, but they don’t! And teachers also keep their mouths shut because most of the self-appointed gurus don’t know either what they are talking about.

Most surprisingly, the same myths, legends, and fairytales about shape shifting point to the ultimate tool of purification. Please, imagine the rising sun that is burning vampires to ashes again. You will see that these hellish creatures pick up fire with the speed as if they were made from paper! Real bodies contain moist water, flesh, and bones and cannot pick up fire with such joyful ease. Remember, Mao Tse Dung’s ideologists called the USA a paper tiger!

T: — According to Wikipedia, in 1956 Mao Tse Dung used the expression “paper tiger” to describe the United States in an interview with American journalists, “In appearance it is very powerful, but in reality it is nothing to be afraid of; it is a paper tiger. Outwardly a tiger, it is made of paper, unable to withstand the wind and the rain.”

PY: —Of course, this is not the USA, the country, but these are the mental thought forms, our brain products that can be compared to “paper tigers.” They look outwardly threateningly ugly, but there is no reason to be afraid of them, because they are overly sensitive to light and cannot stand the light of the truth. It makes them release — give up, return their energy and fall apart, stop existing.

This is why so many secrets are held in darkness and why an English saying goes, “Do not keep me in the dark!” The light destroys the negativity that lurks in the darkness. The Light of Truth is the ultimate tool of cleansing as it destroys the negativity in a person’s soul — in its past and present experiences and may reach into the future improving it.

T: — During that memorable conversation, I received help from Yogananda. He released the memories of a morbid experience in Lemuria and a humiliating experience in France. It improved my relationships in various fields of my life, and this was how I learned that old patterns stay with you through eons provoking explosions of irrational irritation and anger making you paranoid and suspicious… Before finding myself in the ancient past, I saw my Soviet experience as a cause of frequent fits of anger and mistrust. When, after the release of these patterns, these fits disappeared and my energy level started to increase. I understood that, most probably, it was the other way around. I was born in the Soviet Union because of particular vibrational patterns in my system. If it is so, maybe people who have born to be famous have distinct vibrational patterns that make them seek fame? Maybe you want to comment on it?

PY: —I see you have an answer to that question from Vysotsky. He knew what he was talking about.

T: —Vladimir Vysotsky, the Russian superstar spoke in Channeling Vysotsky:

“The fast Russian lifetime of mine was neither the first nor the final one. The training toward the lifetime when you have to become a symbol to the millions takes a long chain of incarnations. If I stayed the length of an average lifespan in every one of them, the preparation would take up too much time, it would last forever. I couldn’t afford such luxury because I had to release many connections. For that end, I had to come back again and again — to release old habits, affections, and attachments. Advancing by short lifetimes made more sense. During my brief stops on earth, I had to purify my aura.  The point is that releasing one thing, you create another thing, and before you know it, you face new problems you did not have before. Trading a short life against a similar short one may become a habit as well. It may become a way of escaping responsibilities.”

T: —He also spoke that by rushing through a lineup of short incarnations, one becomes good material for becoming a star for the millions at the cost of losing ability to build a lasting relationship and loving, normal family. William Powell said it in his spirit message as well.

PY: —I do not know about specific “fame vibrations”, but I know for sure that a person on the path to becoming a real celebrity (like Presley, Jackson, or Lennon) has to be ready to sacrifice his personal happiness for his mission, whatever it is. Ironically, artistic talents — once becoming famous and influential — crave for happiness that they gave away voluntarily. That’s the true human nature. We inherited this from our granny Eve; she had everything but still needed a bite from the forbidden apple which sent us on our everlasting search for happiness.”

T: —Okay, I’ll change my question, “Are the goals compatible, the harmonious, all-round development of an individual and the preparation to become a celebrity?”

PY: —Present day Hollywood is experimenting in this direction. Why would Brangelina’s six-kid family — among them three- adopted children — cause media frenzy all over the world if it wouldn’t be an attempt to resolve this problem? Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie want to continue as actors and be parents of a large and happy family. The world is watching and wondering, does it last and how long.

T: —Why would the public be more interested in celebrities’ children than films? None of the Hollywood mommies — the talented Angelina Jolie included — became Elizabeth Taylor or Bette Davis. The frenzy over Hollywood’s little angels did not help make movies that sway human hearts. It’s too obvious. What would happen to the souls of all these phony celebrities that had bad luck to reach their prime in sinking Mecca?

The External and Internal Tools of Cleansing of Mental Body

PY: — Once here, all are equal! Everybody’s mental burden can be released and destroyed. It is only a person’s fear and guilt that enlivens their “paper tigers.” However, people are not ready to face the fact that they feed their monsters and become prisoners of their own negative thoughts. Life on earth is short, but staying a prisoner of negativity can last eons.

T: — Is there anything people can do to free themselves from negative thought formation while still on earth?

PY: —There are two kinds of purification tools, external tools and inner tools. Among the external tools, the best are nature’s four elements — fire, water, air, and earth! Everyone remembers a childhood experience of pure happiness from playing on a sunny beach, swimming in the ocean, and letting the sea breeze dry out hair. When children play on the beach, Mother Earth continues cleansing their bodies from mental impurities and it feels like being on the top of the world.

This is why humanity created beaches near mega cities because beaches have all four cleansing elements ready to serve humans. This is why beach houses are so coveted and children are willing to spend their entire childhoods near water. If grownups learn to surrender their worries to these four elements, it will help them increase their energy level and resolve many of their burning problems.

Inner Tools: The truth vibrations are the most powerful internal tool of purification. In old days,  people retired to monastic life to reach out to truth vibrations. Now, many sign up for yoga classes or some other energy workshops. Some are good and are worth the money people paid.

T: —What about Christianity? How do Judaism and Christianity deal with it?

PY: —Jewish prophets were fully aware of the problem.

T: — When Jesus was asked why his disciples break bread with unwashed hands, Jesus answered that what is going into the mouth does not defile a person but what comes out of his mouth defiles him.

The Gospel of Mark says, “There is nothing that enters a man from outside which can defile him, but the things that come out of him those are the things that defile a man. Out of the heart of man, proceed evil thoughts, adulteries, fornications, murders, thefts, covetousness, wickedness, deceit, lewdness, an evil eye, blasphemy, pride, foolishness. All these evil things come from within and defile a man,” (Mark 7: 15; 7: 21-23)

PY: —Christian Church counts on prayer, fasting, abstinence, confessions, flagellation, and monastic life. Historically, unthinkable tortures and burning of witches under the umbrella of Christian faith were executed in the name of purification and saving of the sinners’ souls from “eternal hell.” What such “education” achieved was another question!

T: —Sometimes, I think that tortures during Medieval Times stemmed from the pagan world’s practices. Visiting Rome, I was almost paralyzed by the energy that came from the Coliseum. There is a dark and soggy aura around that place as if gladiators, Christian martyrs, lions, and other animals are still dying there and the mob is roaring.

PY: —Another great idea of Christian redemption was connected to the belief that hard work heals. Today, before we started this conversation, I saw you reading in the news that the Nazi slogan, Arbeit Macht Frei… crowning the gate to Auschwitz was stolen. Arbeit Macht Frei — work liberates. What kind of work liberates? Hard work may send a soul to hell faster than some traditional sin, like Don Juan’s womanizing. Compassion and forgiveness empowered by prayers, mantras and meditation frees inner impurities. This is why it is the corner stone of purification in all religions since shamanism. Both monotheistic and dharma religions share this view. Forgiveness is the central idea of the Our Father prayer as well: “Forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.”

Yoga adds to it a scientific element — the art of chakra breathing that supports strong purification of a person’s invisible higher bodies. Nevertheless, the rich philosophy that served India through thousands of years fails the modern India. The Christian World’s idealization of the Arbeit built a splendid materialist civilization, but it kills humanness. If the Auschwitz-Birkenau commandant, whoever he was, did not see the mockery in the words Arbeit Macht Frei  that crowned Auschwitz’ gate, I am sure God did! The payback time for atrocities in Nazi concentration camps and also the Russian Gulags have not yet begun. The pain is still there, and the vibrations of pain slowly, sometimes very slowly, shape future events that cannot be changed anymore! The reason is simple: no one can stop these invisible vibrations. In the past, the dark vibrations of the Coliseum brought down the famous Roman Empire. I am sure historians have other explanations, but it does not matter how they explain it. The vibrations of pain and despair of Auschwitz and other concentration camps and Gulags… wait a minute! I can get from your mind the pulse of a Siberian labor camp.

T: — Instantly, a forgotten memory sprang into my inner screen: rotten and darkened wooden skeletons of abandoned watchtowers with rusted wire surrounded a vast field. The area with scattered, rusted machinery was overgrown with grass. 

Someone volunteered to drive me to this former Gulag. The car stopped at a clearing where the inmates once produced these boards. The monotonous gray, sad energy with darker thickenings stood there. Why the city authorities did not clean it up? Was the former camp still inhibited by the unquiet earthbound souls who guarded their territory? Frosty winds had not dissipated that energy.

PY: —Look in your memory, you are still standing there. You reacted emotionally and allowed your imagination to produce more pictures of that place. As a result, you created a powerful thought form of Russian guilt in your mind, and it sits in your mind quietly working on ‘your behalf’ producing irrational feeling of hopelessness. Now, let’s proceed with our experiment attempting to burn the demonic vision. Alter your state of mind, bring light to that picture and watch it change. Go ahead.

Burning the Unwanted Memory

Light is pouring in effortlessly. Huge violet flowers burst into bloom on that field, but the rusted barbed wire snails were around the flowers. I started to roll that wire, but new layers of that wire were surfacing. Someone lifted all the layers at once and tossed the messy pile into the middle of that place. Wire lifted the layers of soil that revealed unburied bones and sculls. Russian priests in their black gowns rushed in and started talking to some unburied souls who considered that area their cemetery. I have no energy to continue. There were hosts, hosts of unburied victims.

PY: —Put down responsibility immediately. That is your problem: you take over other people’s guilt and neglect your own responsibilities. Do not interfere emotionally anymore, step aside.  Let go your own belief that the arbeit will resolve things. Send your compassion to that cursed place — in abundance — do not skimp sending compassion, the supply of it will not dry out — overcome your hidden dinginess that you developed as a homeless monk in India when you lived out of alms on the streets of Bombay. Open your channels of compassion and look what will happen.

T: —How do I open the invisible channels of compassion?

PY: —Let it go!  This was a practical lesson in what an inner cleansing tool — compassion — can do to a person who knows how to meditate and masters the switch of consciousness.

T: —Thank you. May I ask one more question? Are you saying that both paths of building civilizations failed: the Eastern path ruled by the belief in reincarnation and the Western path governed by belief in one life on earth during which a person has to work hard in order to earn his salvation? The East’s way suppresses individuality and the West’s way kills humanness.

PY: —Nothing is lost. You forgot to report that you saw a chapel being built in the place of the former Gulag’s administrative building, and there were beautiful flowers around that chapel and benches that bring people to sit there, repent, talk to God, and cleanse their souls. Wicked can take everything from people but the path of their growth. It does not stop on earth.

PY: –The release from self-created prisons starts with the release of the attachments to material pleasures and desires. Yogis do it. Can we do it? Probably it is easier to say than to accomplish. I remember how at one point the idea of “killing my always desiring this and that person” for freeing my consciousness from tyranny of mental thought forms flashed through my mind. At that moment, it seemed to be too extreme and impossible… Nevertheless, here I am today thinking of this, and it seems to me natural.  Do we really have some other choices than easing “the strong attachments to material pleasures and desires?” If we do not put our mind to it, then the aging process will do it for us in rudest and unpleasant ways…


medium-seal-500x500 A Word about JVP School of Mystical Art that
Touted Me To Trust My Intuition 

In 2015 I signed up for on-line classes of Master James Van Praagh’s School of Mystical Arts: The Courses of JVP Psychic and Intuitive Certification Level1 and The JVP Mediumship Certification. I did not want to demo spirit communication publicly, as I have some limitations that will not allow me to do it successfully (like my learned English, for instance!) My goal was to develop, activate and make work my channels of intuition and spirit communication for writing about spirit communication. Along the way I found out more than I was bargained for…  The book is in making. This post will give is a brief look into that book!

What I can say about the JVP on-line courses! It was a tense study, when I was told to take a seat in front of a mirror and check out how my chakras work, I thought that James is slightly exaggerating, so to speak!  But I did sit there, in case, and I could not believe when colorful pictures of my chakras started to show up in the mirror! I got back my self-esteem as a psychic, I learned to trust my intuition—JVP made out of me the person able to develop. I learned to love the TEACHER in James Van Praagh who, in my case did incredible work supporting the writer in me not by reviewing, not giving the connection in publishing world, but opening new channels in me for this kind of work! There cannot be a more valuable gift that a teacher can bestow on his disciple! Now I am not reporting what OTHERS say about spirit communication, I write about my own experience as a spirit communicator, what is so much more interesting and valuable!

a brief insight into the new book’s subject!

As a medium, I had the chance to report on various spirits’ revelations regarding “terrible conditions” of their mental body what they discovered immediately after coming to senses after the transition from life on earth to life in the astral world.

Also, as a medium, I asked them for a favor to describe the condition of my mental body, how they see it. Their description gave me idea to try to cleanse my mental body on my own. Soon enough, I learned that this is possible, very much possible, and here is my honest and simple report how I have done this so far.  Feel free to copy this report and try to use it for yourself! If you have time, send a note about it to my e-mail account

One has to start with meditation. Say, today, I have already chosen a specific problem to work on. Say, I am jealous on my friend who has achieved so much more than me, working lesser than me! I already know that this negative feeling of jealousy will produce so called gluey thought forms which will land onto the surface of my mental body, clog it, and clogging will impair my will and good luck in everything!

First, a few words about meditation – if you skip this step, nothing will happen and you will not advance with cleansing of your mental body what is truly crucial and important for your health and money luck – for your well being.

So, I start meditation: I relax and try stop the automatic mind talk to yourself about nothing. I concentrate on breathing until I see light behind my closed eyes. It takes about 15 to 30 minutes, until the ocean of golden, violet or completely transparent colorless energy waves will fill the mind space behind the closed eyes. Now my mind has a workable connection with LIGHT, and I can proceed earnestly!

I “speak” to Light, asking to show me my problem as a symbolic vision in my 3rd eye world. I ask for a particular symbolic reflection that would show me my particular problem that I had chosen to work on today! Say, this problem would be the feel of doom that I will never ever resolve my money problems.  Or I have to work on my believe or conviction that I am too fat, too old, too stupid to have a love affair, to have a husband, children, family, because everybody around is smarter, more successful than me! You know the names of these problems by heart, as they are on the list of every decent healer and you have tried to be healed by almost everyone of them!

Now, for a change, try to heal yourself with your own means stashed into your psyche by ALMIGHTY HIMSELF in the process of creation the human race, as we know it today! You are wired to heal yourself. All you have to do is to believe that your Creator have made you to be happy, prosperous and loveable! Fill your entire heart with overflowing love vibes no matter how strong winds are blowing around you!

Let go back to our meditation session. Now, be sincere, because during this work your honest look at yourself and your problems will be you most valuable currency, the only currency that Light will accept!

My friend, now in spirit, Estonian doctor and healer Luule Viilma suggested also to ask forgiveness from your body for producing negativity like jealousy and allowing it to cripple your body decades before your recognized its existence in your psyche!

In my case, LIGHT gave a symbolic picture of my problem, say, jealousy as a dark gray mountain of some industrial residue!

Now, this is your work to move that mountain out of your holographic selfie!

Remember, you cannot work with that mountain directly, but you can work with its symbolic picture and destroying the picture, you will destroy the “mountain” itself, despite its strong and threatening look!

With the aid from the power of thought, I ask LIGHT to accept my “package” and receive it, and melt it, erase it, make it disappear in the GOLDEN LIGHT.

And LIGHT accepts the nasty “package” with images of numerous manifestations of my jealousy that I have created without knowing or thinking that this will harm my life. I ask LIGHT while erasing my corresponding negative thought forms TO SEND ME BACK MY CLEANSED ENERGY! And LIGHT obliges again and again and again, giving me back my cleansed energy!

LIGHT loves you, LIGHT works for you, LIGHT slaves for you! 

Find right words to THANK LIGHT for this invaluable, incredible work on your behalf worth be named a miracle of creation! And it will cost you absolutely nothing but about 30-60 minutes of daily meditation that you have to squeeze into your busy schedule… Sorry, not to squeeze in, but organize your schedule around the universal healing meditation as frequently as you can.

Why is this so? Each  expression of our negative intentions, thoughts, emotions, and actions leaves a receipt in form of a gluey thought form on the surface of your mental body.  A lot of such “receipts” clog the mouths of our channels that steam non-stop cosmic vital energy into your energy system. But clogging diminishes the quantity of energy that you get through these cosmic channels, and you become weaker, and weaker and weaker… and when the clogging is complete, the death mercifully relieves us from our misery!

… Why these thought forms has to be destroyed? They can only exist at the expense of your vital energy. These thought forms are “thieves,” because they either destroy you, or you destroy them, and there is no alternative to this dilemma. @!

One more time – The negative thought forms keep your energy in “captivity”, because they can only exist at the expense of your energy. “The idea of”, say, jealousy, may materialize itself, building the “body”, in other words, a corresponding thought form for jealousy out of your energy as a building material aka wood, concrete or plastic!

There are more to it, having some life in itself, it attracts other people’s jealousy into you psyche making you more jealous! Read the classic work of Annie Besant “Thought Forms”.

My personal experience. It took only one meditation and my jealousy was weakened significantly, some of it left my aura with the “roar”, and quickly … A lot of energy was sent back to me, and I took it in with deepest gratitude to God, Light and for such HELP –to UNIVERSE!

The return of cleansed energy gives you sense of victory over your weaknesses! And on the physical level this return cannot be missed or taken for something else!  You will recognize it, because it heals you and makes you stronger instantaneously!

However, if there is no return – – it is also recognizable without any mistake, it means that you either formulated you question wrongly, or you failed to open your channels, or you mistrusted LIGHT, and underestimated your problem!


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Try to become a cat who would see in the mirror instead of the powerful and threatening lion – yourself and you will become a very strong and happy “cat”@!

P.S. Now you know what The Ancient Greek aphorism “gnothi seauton” “know thyself” truly means. It is also one of the Delphic maxims and was inscribed in the forecourt of the Temple of Apollo at Delphi, the center of Greek spirit communication! In Latin the aphorism is generally given as nosce te ipsum or temet nosce.